Embracing the Present
It has been a while since I have shared some #momconfessions
While both my guys nap today, I sit here just reflecting on how blessed I am with this beautiful journey of motherhood.
Recently, I was reminded of where I thought I would be at this point in my life and it’s crazy how life just happens and your course of action completely changes.
A few years ago, I was working towards my second Bachelor's degree in Nursing when I abruptly had to end the program due to multiple mental health hospitalizations. My heart was broken and I felt I had lost my purpose. My husband and I ultimately decided I wouldn’t be continuing schooling and figured it was time to start a family.
Grayson is almost a year now and I am yet to finish that degree. When friends and family ask if I will ever go back to school, my answer has recently changed. I just don't see that life for myself anymore. I am perfectly content being a stay at home mom and teaching Mommy+Me Fitness three days a week. Yeah I have my off days where I'm not a ray of sunshine, but I try to start each day with a grateful heart.
I am living my best life...I'm where I belong.
I am embracing the present and absolutely loving where this life has taken me. It may seem crazy, but I have found my purpose. This purpose just wasn't the one I had from the start. I always wanted to be a mother, but didn't realize the insane amount of joy and fulfillment it would bring me. With this journey, I have learned to love myself and value my abilities to nurture and care for a child. I was MEANT FOR THIS!
"The self-awareness that comes from truly digging into what you've come to believe about who you are is invaluable." -Rachel Hollis
For years I would put myself down and blame myself for not reaching my original goal. By refraining from comparing myself to who I thought I was suppose to be, each day I felt more at peace. Surrounding myself with constant happiness and positivity is my choice and a choice each of us can make everyday.
As I sing, "if it's meant to be, it'll be, it'll be, baby just let it be"...I am writing this in hopes that others that have given up or changed their dreams, realize that it is ok. Accepting this can be tough, but you will get there. This all may sound cliché, but it's the truth.
"Friends, it's not about the goal or dream you have. It's about who you BECOME on your way to that goal."
Tell me a positive affirmation for yourself in the comments below!
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