Intentional. That's my word for 2019. Intentional. Doing something with purpose. Doing something for a purpose. Doing something ON purpose. So often as a mom I have found myself just "making my way through " the day. TRYING to navigate my way through motherhood one tantrum and difficult decision at a time. I have been guilty of not being as present as I want to be, or should be. Even if I am in the same room as my family, my mind would be 1038473 other places. While I'm giving my kids breakfast, I am already thinking about what I'm going to do for dinner... while I'm getting my kids dressed and they're excitedly talking to me about something that happened at school the day before, I am thinking of the load of laundry I need to throw in the wash or fold. I am always trying to stay 3 steps ahead of myself and in doing so, I am robbing myself of being in the moment and robbing my children of a mom who is present in the moment. Either way - the moment passes by and it's one more that I cant get back with them. I decided I had had enough. I needed to change my game plan, my way of doing things wasn't working anymore. I made a promise to myself that I would be more intentional with all aspects of my life.
The first being, intentional with my time. Life is fleeting and 24 hours in a day hardly seems long enough when you're name is mom, right? There is always more to do than not to do. There is always a load of laundry to do or dishes to be washed. Lunches to be made, juice to be poured, groceries to get... you get the picture. I have found that being as organized as possible helps me the most.. giving my tasks and to do's their own time specifically set aside each day just for them ... whether I wake up an hour earlier each day whatever I have to do to save myself that extra window of time each day to be more present with my kids, so be it. They are only little for so long and I would not be being fair to them if I was not able to give them the attention they deserve, the time to nurture their minds and creativity and the time to find out what their heart speaks. I want time to watch their imagination soar, I want to have the time to see the spark in their eye when they get a math problem right, or read an entire story by themselves. I want to teach them lessons, the easy and the hard. I want all the time I can have with them, and it starts with me MAKING the time by being more intentional with it. Isn't that what all of us moms want?
Intentional with my finances. No more buying things that do not serve a purpose, that do not bring me or my family joy. Saving money. Paying for experiences, not just things. Life can be full of "stuff" but experiences shared with loved ones, especially experiences seen through the eyes of my kids -- that's the "stuff" I want my life to be full of.
Intentional with my energy. Gone are the days of giving my time and energy to those and things that do not deserve it. Focusing on insignificant hang ups rather than the pieces of happiness I am so lucky to have... instead of focusing on the let downs and stresses, I want to focus on my blessings. No more engaging in disagreements and arguments about things that in the grand scheme of things really do not matter. Most of those being with my significant other. He and I disagree on a lot, but one thing we do agree on is our love for each other... everything else is just noise. I want to live my life not just "get through" it. I have learned that I magnify every stress I have by feeding into it. By giving it worry I am giving it power. The stressor is still going to be there until I work through it. My response to what causes me stress will determine a positive outcome or not.
So what will your word for 2019 be ? Share yours in the comments to inspire another mama looking got a little hope and change in this new year!